I feel really great, that I'm really really happy not missing a thing. I don't even care that I don't have a boyfriend, even though that's been an issue of mine for so long. One day I just felt like "why am I so bothered by that thought, of staying single?". And that's true. Why was I so obsessed with having someone to flirt with me, hold me, love me like only a boyfriend could? Was I just curios about relationships or have my thoughts and my selfesteem gotten better since that day? I don't know. But it feels good.
But this day, and maybe yesterday as well, I just feel like there's something missing. I want to start new. I want to be that good girl who works out a couple of mornings every week, I want to focus on my studies, I want to get extensions ... I'm going to start small, at least. I'm studying for my finals in English 6 (my whole grade will be decided in like three hours, yikes!) on Monday, a test in social studies for Tuesday and I try to really understand everything in math class. I figured out some of the harder questions in geometry today so I feel pretty good about that. Hopefully I'll keep my B in math!
Regarding the work out thing, I will start to take walks by myself. Listening to podcasts, let my thoughts just wander away and maybe I will come up with something great. Or at least burn a few calories and get those slim legs and flat stomach I so badly want (but am too lazy to work for and too hungry to starve for). Win.
And about my looks ... I don't know. I most likely will get extensions, and I'm trying to get better with makeup. Thinking of buying some MAC-products, I've heard that they're good. We'll see!
Such a long post. So many words, for no readers at all, haha. At least I got some things off my chest. ♥
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